why did I even pay money (for a year no less!) to someone to host a website which no one ever visited? I'm not feeling sorry for myself,but the fact is that besides my own, there were perhaps two or three hits per month.

So where am I now? Shouting at the darkness? I might as well let go here.

I have no idea why I get down like this-- everything is just the way it should be. I need to improve mystation. I need toexercize. I needtowrite.Ineed to soanything other thanwanderaround the house aimlessly. I don't know if I even can... afteralloftheopportunites and falsestarts, should I have gone somewhere with something bynow?

fuck it iwont even bothertofix the typoes.

fuck it,just fuck it . I'm done